Wednesday, July 20, 2005
i rrly shld start "controllin" my mouth. almost a week ago. i filled my msn screen wif it. todae i juz say the fuckin word agn. sickening. im piss wif myself. wads worst was it came out so naturally frm mi. i din hesistate or anithing. as if it was part of mi. i guess i was rrly mad. -watch my words- i dun like the other side of mi. when i get real bad. real angry. i will juz argue back. no matter. but wtf. im irritated wif myself. zzz. oh wells. i dunno wad happen durin confrontation other den my klass guys kept quiet n *he* kept toking. frm his expression i bet he xploded too. i juz dun like his attitude. i dun care if hes nice to the gers. but this aint the way to treat ur fellow schoolmate when *he speaks nicely to *he*.! really. at least set *he* tone rite.! u knoe how offensive it seems. zzz.i haf to admit tt it takes both hands to clap. but still... if we arent gonna tell *he* tt *he* shld change *he* attitude. who wld?! wad wld happen to *he* if *he* go out to the society wif this attitude of *he*?! -sigh- i was taught to accept pple for who dey r but at this instance everything seems contradicting.. its like i wan him to change his attitude. change for the betta. but wad if tt was the real him?! am i suppose to close one eye n juz tolerate his attitude. im confused.learnt first aid agn todae. realised i nid to go back sch n chop wood wif the guys. hahas. farnie shit. oh wells. everything went on well todae. thank goodness i din get the meet the parents form. -.- gonna mug le.aiting~ dear. sorry ah. blurted the word at u todae. yeps. i guess he was ur fren tats y we kinda side different sides. hahas. our thinkin n the way we handle stuff are never similar right from the start. its like we r poles apart. but i guess unlike poles attract huh. but one thing is for sure. it takes 2 hands to clap. but still. if ya tink bout it. *he* still shld nt haf show his attitude. wad wrong did he* do?! nth i wld sae. other den we kinda blow things up. enuff of tt le. if nt im bound to haf a heated arguement wif ya someday. things will cool down... different pple settle things differently. some choose to swallow all the unhappiness while others juz show it. i guess im the one who show it unless the person who make mi mad is someone i rrly care n love. den i wld choose to swallow the unhappiness. cyaz.~
beautifully loved`- at 6:27 p.m.